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I love you 3000

I used to think—maybe, just maybe—I was being raised by an emotionally unavailable, inexpressive man. But now, looking back, I see it more clearly. My dad was more present than I ever gave him credit for. In fact, he gave more of himself than he probably should have. He worked in a city four hours away from home. Logically, practically, he had every right to stay there during the week, like I do now. But he didn’t. Instead, he chose to commute—sometimes 8, even 10 hours a day—just so he could be with us, before leaving and after coming back from work. He rode the same bicycle every single day for over 25 years, just to save on petrol. He’d come home at night, and we’d drink Horlicks together from that yellow mug while he sang the “ Apang Gopang Japang ” jingle—just because I loved it so much. I loved apples. And somehow, we never ran out. We weren’t rich—nowhere close—but I never lacked anything. I never had to ask for anything twice. If I wanted something, it magically appeared the sa...

I wish...

I want someone to chase after me I want my movie scene in the pouring rain I want lilies because they are my favourite I want someone to show up at my house unannounced I want hands held in public I want to be brought home to meet the parents I want love letters I want songs sung together I want to sit on the beach and watch the sun set in I want stargazing I want to be missed when we spent too long apart I want nights in together I want nights out together I want planned futures I want playful fights over whose eye colour our babies will have I want pictures of us laughing I want the last slice of pizza because it's always my favourite I want the right side of the bed I want "i love you" traced on my back when I'm half asleep I want poems written about me I want someone who can't take their eyes off of me in a crowd I want goodbye kisses on my forehead I wanna be made to feel special and most of all i really really want to be loved I really want to be loved

Blessed 💫

Lately I wonder how lucky I am to be alive,  How blessed I am to experience this life,  To have immense strength, energy and enthusiasm to be curious daily,  To be able to have so many experiences in this lifetime.  Sometimes we forget what we have running in this crazy rat race along with other rats around the globe.  But here I am, remembering my luck to be alive, to think, to speak, to touch, to sense and every single opportunity sent towards me for a better future.  I guess the real wealth isn't just money anymore, I used to think as so but now I realise it's not all. Real wealth is abundance of love, joy, peace, luck and health.  I am grateful for everything I own, even though practically I don't own anything.  I might possess materials and relations and people in my life but do I really own them? I don't think so. It's just a mere thought of owning everything around for a sense of stability and moment of peace.  I don't own anything and...

I AM SORRY

Hey Kids, It's your mom, I am 25 now.  It's been a rough time lately, your mom quit her job in order to take a break which she never did before.  For the first time ever, I had so much time that I didn't know what to do. I travelled a lot, I published my second book, fulfilled my dream of celebrating my 25th birthday in Dubai, i interviewed at multiple jobs, got rejected by many, got selected by a few.  Received the offer letters and somehow didn't end up taking them and going back to office.  About that, it's not that I didn't like going back it's only that I've literally spoiled myself with the best, the universe always gave the best for me so going through this time is making me caught up in a harsh breeze of sadness.  I never consider myself as failure cause in the end I always win, things get better, situations turn out in the best of my favour and if it's not yet that way it means it's not the end.  However, now that I have so much time to ...

Why Dubai?

It all started with a challenge from a random relative when I was just five years old. I was that curious kid, always eager to learn, explore, and discover something new. It was another ordinary day, just like any other, until I heard the name "Dubai" for the first time. My relative was talking to my mom and said, "My son got a job in Dubai; he'll be leaving in a few days." My mom replied, "Oh, that’s great!"   I was sitting on the ground, playing with my toys nearby, but when I heard that, something inside me stirred. I stood up, walked over, and stood between them, wanting to know more. “What’s Dubai? Is it a job? A place? A city?” I asked.  My relative looked down at me and replied, “It’s abroad, far from India. It’s not easy to go to Dubai.”  Without hesitation, I said, “Oh, I want to go too.”   She laughed—loudly. “Haha, she’s funny. Beta, you can’t even leave this town until you’re married. Women don’t go there. Especially you, you can’t.”  ...