I AM SORRY

Hey Kids,

It's your mom, I am 25 now. 

It's been a rough time lately, your mom quit her job in order to take a break which she never did before. 

For the first time ever, I had so much time that I didn't know what to do. I travelled a lot, I published my second book, fulfilled my dream of celebrating my 25th birthday in Dubai, i interviewed at multiple jobs, got rejected by many, got selected by a few. 

Received the offer letters and somehow didn't end up taking them and going back to office. 

About that, it's not that I didn't like going back it's only that I've literally spoiled myself with the best, the universe always gave the best for me so going through this time is making me caught up in a harsh breeze of sadness. 

I never consider myself as failure cause in the end I always win, things get better, situations turn out in the best of my favour and if it's not yet that way it means it's not the end. 

However, now that I have so much time to think about various things, I realise that I am not very talented in so many things. 

I don't cook very tasty food except a few recipes here and there. 

I don't know how to drive.

I don't know how to swim.

I don't own my dream businesses yet.

I haven't even started building them yet. 

There's still so much more to learn and when am I going to do all of this?

To be honest, I don't know. 

I will try my best to be the bestest mom I can but I am not sure if I can ever be a perfect mom. 

Maybe I don't have to be perfect after all, maybe I just need to be present and be the best I can. You might resent me someday too for the things I haven't learned, or how I haven't been the perfect mom for you. But I promise to try, it's my first time living this life so I am sorry for the mistakes in advance cause I know I'll be wrong at times, i might be strict at times, I might be just a human who makes mistakes. 

I AM SORRY.